InsaneJournal

Current mood:	accomplished
Current music:	Delilah eating breakfast.

not abandoned after all
I know I haven't written in quite a long time. So much stuff has happened, and well online stuff kind of got pushed to the bottom of my list. So here's an entry, enjoy. ;)

It's funny how sometimes one discovers a personal growth completely by accident. I've taken up knitting on a knitting loom, I have about 24 inches knitted of what I hope will end up being a pashmina style shawl when I am done. I was sitting in my recliner earlier and I realised about half-way through a row that I had dropped a stitch. Rather than freaking out, getting angry with myself, and ripping the entire thing out and starting from scratch...I just kept going. On a knitting loom, it's really simple to pick a stitch back up on the next go round. That's exactly what I did.

There was a time in my life, not that long ago, that the afore mentioned tantrum would have been a given. I was taking a pass/fail, self paced, remedial math class in college. As long as we passed the tests with a D or above, it counted as a pass and a finished unit in the class. We had three chances to take each test. If I got less than a 100% on the test, I would take it over until I got that 100%...even though it was not necessary. But today, I just suddenly realised that sometimes it's okay to just accept life's little imperfections and move on. This feels like a major breakthrough to me. I don't know if it really is, but I'm taking it as one...and moving on! ;)

So...I'm going to go back to my knitting and do a bit more before I head to bed...and every time I see that little spot where I dropped that stitch, I'm going to remember the day I grew up a little, relaxed a little, and came just a little closer to being the person I really want to be.