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Tweak says, "ebay rules"

Gillianne (rabidpotterfan) wrote,
@ 2008-01-11 05:47:00

Current location:	home
Current mood:	accomplished
Current music:	Delilah eating breakfast.

not abandoned after all
I know I haven't written in quite a long time. So much stuff has happened, and well online stuff kind of got pushed to the bottom of my list. So here's an entry, enjoy. ;)

It's funny how sometimes one discovers a personal growth completely by accident. I've taken up knitting on a knitting loom, I have about 24 inches knitted of what I hope will end up being a pashmina style shawl when I am done. I was sitting in my recliner earlier and I realised about half-way through a row that I had dropped a stitch. Rather than freaking out, getting angry with myself, and ripping the entire thing out and starting from scratch...I just kept going. On a knitting loom, it's really simple to pick a stitch back up on the next go round. That's exactly what I did.

There was a time in my life, not that long ago, that the afore mentioned tantrum would have been a given. I was taking a pass/fail, self paced, remedial math class in college. As long as we passed the tests with a D or above, it counted as a pass and a finished unit in the class. We had three chances to take each test. If I got less than a 100% on the test, I would take it over until I got that 100%...even though it was not necessary. But today, I just suddenly realised that sometimes it's okay to just accept life's little imperfections and move on. This feels like a major breakthrough to me. I don't know if it really is, but I'm taking it as one...and moving on! ;)

So...I'm going to go back to my knitting and do a bit more before I head to bed...and every time I see that little spot where I dropped that stitch, I'm going to remember the day I grew up a little, relaxed a little, and came just a little closer to being the person I really want to be.

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	ivylady 2008-01-22 08:53 am UTC (link)
	Somehow, I completely missed you over here. I saw a comment you left and followed you to your journal. Glad to see you learning to let go of the small stuff. I'm the same way--if something goes wrong, I get all upset and frustrated and it's ridiculous, but I hope that will change in the future. I'm friending you here. (Reply to this) (Thread)

rabidpotterfan
2008-01-30 04:38 pm UTC (link)

Wow...I am so behind on comments. Sorry about that. I will go friend you back in just a sec. :)

Honestly, some of my temper control has come with age. I don't know how old you are, so maybe you have that with age comes wisdom thing to look forward to. I always tell people I have a temper to match the (red) hair. ;) But it has been a lot of years since I put my fist through a wall. :)

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ivylady
2008-01-30 06:45 pm UTC (link)

LOL--temper to match the red hair. Well, I'm 27 and I do notice that my temper has improved. My younger sister told my bf that while I might get angry about things, I get over them rather quickly, and that's the case. Once I'm over them, I'm over them. I'm just trying to work on getting less angry at certain things.

Hm, I've never put my fist through a wall, but I have had my moments. *grins*

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	rabidpotterfan 2008-02-02 04:41 am UTC (link)
	well...I'm a little bit older than you. I'm 32. I'll be 33 in September. Anyway, as I get older I find myself not getting as angry, and not hanging on to that anger for as long when I do get angry. I don't recommend putting your fist through a wall...it is definitely painful! My right pinky finger is still crooked from that! ;) LOL! (Reply to this) (Parent)